Bold, Blunt, and Entirely too Honest!

We all know the age old saying that; Honesty is the best policy.

But, is it really true?

I have been told many times that I am a bold and blunt person. I am constantly told that no one ever worries about how I feel or think about something because I am going to speak my mind about it weather they want to know it or not.

That being said, there have been many times in my life where I have been brutally honest and have had to be bold and blunt about something, and it always back fires on me.

If honesty is the best policy, why is it that this happens? I try my best to do what I feel is right to those around me and it always bites me in the rear.

So I have been going through a rough time lately, as many of you know. And in the last few days, life has become even more daunting.

You see, I was starting a new relationship with a wonderful guy. And I don't want anyone to get upset with him because of what I am about to say, because I understand where he is coming from.

Every time I have started a relationship, and things are going well, I struggle with when to mention what could quite possibly be a HUGE deal breaker. And in the past when I have shared this, the guy has ended the relationship. So I am always hesitant to share this very venerable personal piece of my life.

HOWEVER, this does not mean that I am not open to talk about it, because I am way too bold and blunt. ;)

So, some people may disagree with my timing but before a relationship gets too serious and before feelings can get too involved I drop my "deal breaker".

I tell who ever it is that I simply cant have kids, and maybe if I talk about it on here it won't be a huge shock for people later.

People have asked me why I decide to tell the person so early and the reason is this; In relationships it is not you can hurt the person or not hurt the person. It is however, I can hurt this person a little bit or I can hurt this person a lot. I would rather rip off a band-aid and have it sting for a short time, then to cut open a scare and have it bleed for a prolonged amount of time. But the biggest reason, is because I simply don't want to get hurt anymore than is necessary.  So, I get it done and over with as soon as possible, because if I am going to get hurt, I'd rather it be a band-aid.

As you can imagine, telling the guy didn't the way I was hoping. Not to say that he is a terrible person, because he isn't. I will defend him and his choices. I do condemn him for his choice, it is a hard hurdle for anyone to jump over. The first few times they will fall and they also might not be able to clear it. And, that is okay. Who am I to judge for what is important to him? I cannot and I will not.

It has just become incredibly difficult to be able to open up to people anymore. And it is not because I am cold and bitter, it is simply because I don't want to go through anymore pain and sorrow. I am not generally a touchy feely person in the first place so I don't tend to share how I feel about things so when I do it and it back fires it hurts that much more.

I don't know why I decided to write about this, none of you really need to know my problems. But I personally needed it I guess.

Whatever you take away form this please do not think badly about the guy, and don't judge him. He truly is I amazing and is a sweetheart.

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Teasha Adams

Who You'd be Today

Howdy,

The past few weeks have been quite an interesting journey for me. Actually, make that the past 4 months.  I have felt more emotions in those months than I have in the last few years.

It all started when I made the decision to go to the Temple for my church and make covenants with God. This was a life changing moment for me, and it was the easiest one I have ever made.

That being said, I didn't know how much it was going to impact me emotionally. Some things happened during the few months leading up to me going to the temple that I never would have expected to happen...

Let me back up just a bit and explain quickly what the temple is and why we, as members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, have Temples.

We believe that temples are the house of the Lord, and are the most sacred places on Earth. In temples we perform sacred and holy ordinances and make covenants, promises, with the Lord. These ordinances and covenants are what bind families together for ever. We not only do these things for ourselves, but by proxy for those who have already passed. It has been said that "occasionally in the Temple the veil between us and those on the other side becomes very thin" I know that this is true and that when we do work in the temple for those who have passed on they are with us.

If you have more questions about the temple and want to know more please feel free to ask.

Now you are up to speed...So I as I was preparing to go to the temple I had a mental and emotional break down. This happened about 2-3 weeks before and it was bad. I had completely fallen apart and it was because of one person, Brian.

Brian was and is one of the best people I have ever met. He was my best friend in the time that I knew him and on April 6th, 2010 he passed away due to cancer. I miss him dearly, and when I was having my break down I wasn't sure why I was having such a hard time with it.

I have generally gotten to where the pain of missing him doesn't hit me as much and I can be happy that he is no longer here. But that particular night in November, all I wanted was my best friend back so I could talk to him about all of my concerns and hardships.

This hasn't gotten any easier since then, and I am not sure why. I have guesses that its because a lot of our milestones as friends happened between September and April but that's all I got.

I often find myself wondering who he's be today if the cancer had never come back. I am sure that he would have served a mission for our church, and the Lord. He would have finished his degree and became an animator. He would have found an amazing girl to love and marry, and he would have been an AMAZING father!

But sadly, death tore the pages away of a story that hadn't even begun yet.

Some people tell me that his death shouldn't be hard on me, but it always will be. He meant too much to me for it to not matter.

I would not be who I am today, if it weren't for him, and I am grateful for that.

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The name of Jesus Christ.

Howdy!

As members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints when we are baptized we take upon us the name of Christ. Each and every Sunday when we take the Sacrament we covenant with God that we are willing to take upon us the name of the Son, and always remember him.

As I was thinking about this blog post I started to think of all the names and titles we have for Christ, and here are a few:

Light and life of the world

Prince of peace

Mediator

Advocate

Redeemer

Brother 

Savior

Friend

Morning Star

Lamb of God

Son of God

Alpha and Omega

Jehovah

I Am

Emmanuel

Joshua

The Anointed One

King of Kings

Lord of Lords

Rabbi

Master

That is a lot of things we are taking upon us when we commit to taking upon us His name. My question is, do we fully understand what it means to do this? And if we did, would we still do what we do?

Would you still laugh at people who do things different from you? Would you gossip about those around you? Would you post that mean status on Facebook, or that mean comment? Would you go to that website you know you shouldn't be looking at?

I think that if we truly understood who Jesus Christ is and what He expects of us, we wouldn't do any of these things. 

Christ loved everyone, but never dropped his standards. He knew His purpose in life, to do the Fathers will. We are here to do the same thing, but the most wonderful part about it is that we are working with Him! We aren't working for Heavenly Father and Christ we are working with them. They are there to help us and for us to lean on when things get hard. 

We are all fallible, all of us get tempted and need to be saved, and that is why Christ atoned for ours sins. He went through all of our pain, hardships and temptations before we did. Why would we not turn to someone we know has the answers and can help us? He has been there! TURN TO HIM! He will help. He is reaching out His hand to pull us up and keep us from drowning, all we need to do is to choose to grab it and be saved. 

He has given us a road map for how we can be flawless, and there is only one way to get there. It is through the path HE walked alone. Only He could do it, that is why the path is narrow. None where with Him, and since He was alone we never have to be, and that my friends is reason to rejoice. 

So, my plea to you, and myself, is to think before we act. Would you do what you are about to do if Christ was sitting next to you? If not, simply don't do it!

I love you all and know that I am here for you if any of you ever need me! 

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Learning to Stand Alone.

Howdy!

Over the last few months I have come to realize how important friends actually are to our wellbeing. I feel as though we take the people in our lives for grated and before we know it they are gone, and we are alone.

This is where I am.

I have recently come to realize that I no longer have anyone I can confide in. This happened for a multitude of reasons, such as; me pushing the away to protect myself, having different priorities, or simply, not putting in the effort to remain friends.

Before I go any further I want to explain that I am not complain nor am I blaming anyone, I am just trying to express how I feel.

I am alone. I have no one to hold me up when I start to lean and fall because I am exhausted and just can't stand any longer.

I have never felt this away before, sure I have felt lonely, but I have never felt like I was truly alone.

As many of you know, I tend to have strong stoic facade. I don't show emotion, and I certainly don't cry. That being said, I have cried more times in the last month than I think I have since I was a baby. Thats how alone I feel.

I have tried to reach out to some of my friends, but that timing isn't right or they simply don't make time, which make me feel even more alone. Due to this, I have gotten stuck in a weird state of depression. I am fine when I am at work, but as son as I clock out, all I want to do is go home and crawl into bed and sleep, and that is precisely what I do. I don't go to any church activities, I don't hang out with people, I sleep.

It's been rough, and I haven't explained most of this to anyone because I dont want them to feel bad, nor do I want them asking how I am doing every 5 minutes.

When all of this first started to happen I found it ironic and comical. Simply becasue back in high school and in college, I never would have guessed that I would be completely alone and having no one to confide in. I was the girl everyone assumed would have gotten married before she got out of her teens and now I am almost 25 and alone, that's irony at it's finest.

But as it got worse and my 2 closest friends and I stopped talking completely, it all sank in.

I realized, that I need to learn to stand alone. It's sad, but I know I am in this "season" of life for a reason. This all has a purpose, whatever that purpose may be. I may not know what the reasoning behind it is, but I have to trust that Heavenly Father is in control and will pull me out of this, and that I will be a stronger and more diligent person when it is all said and done.

I was having an extremely hard time with excepting that I could turn to Christ and he would help me to stand, and that I wasn't standing alone, and it's still hard, but I heard a song that helped and I will link it at the end of the post, as usual.

I want you guys to know that I know that Christ is there for all of us, it may not make it any easier to get through our trials, but it will make it so that we don't get burned and smothered by them. I know HE loves us, and understand where we are and how to help us, all we need to do is turn to Him in prayer and left Him hold us. Just because you can't see Heavenly Fathers plan, doesn't mean theres no plan, there is always a hand holding you even when you things aren't in control.

Please, if you are going though a hard time and need someone to talk to, go to Christ first, then come talk to me. My door is always open and I love you guys.

I am sorry if this post is all over the place, but honestly it is just raw emotion.

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Keep living the Gospel until you know it is wrong.

I was asked to speak in sacrament meeting today, and a lot of my loved ones have asked me to share what I said, so here it is, word for word.

Howdy! So as most of you know I’m Teasha, and I want to warn you, the past few weeks have been life changing so if this talk is all over the place, I am sorry. I also apologize for how personal this may become.

In this past conference Elder Quintin L. Cook gave a talk entitled : Shipshape and Bristol Fashion: Be Temple Worthy—in Good Times and Bad Times 

He says: The adversary has been successful in planting a great myth in the minds of many people. He and his emissaries declare that the real choice we have is between happiness and pleasure now in this life and happiness in a life to come (which the adversary asserts may not exist). This myth is a false choice, but it is very seductive.

Because of this we must always be striving to live in such away that if you were to go to the temple at this moment we would be worthy of it. 

Later in his talk Elder Cook states: the storms and temptations of this life are often unpredictable. But this we know: they will come! In order to overcome the challenges and temptations that each of us inevitably faces, it will require righteous preparation and the use of divinely provided protections. We must determine to be temple worthy regardless of what befalls us. If we are prepared, we shall not fear.

Now for the person part…

Some of you may or may not know this but I have not always been active in this Gospel. 

When I first moved to Texas from Arizona, I had no obligation to go to church. I had not friends here that would encourage me to go, and none if my family cared since none of them are Mormon, so it was easy to simply not go.

I would go when I could fit it into my schedule or when I thought it was convenient for me. The best way I can describe this is that I was living in such away that  I was making my life choices based on personal gain rather than basing those choices on values and what Heavenly Father was asking of me. 

So about 4 years ago we got a new bishop, which meant that I could really step back form the church, because the “new” guy wouldn't know who I was and therefore wouldn’t know I was missing… Or so I thought. 

About a month after the change I got a call from the Elders that were serving in the ward at the time, they told me that bishop had asked them to reach out to me and to have a lesson with me, and all I could think was “shucks! my plan has been foiled.” So I reluctantly said I would meet with them and  little did I know that was the best choice I could have made for myself.

It wasn’t an immediate change for me, I did’t suddenly become active…I was still not following what I knew was right.

So after meeting with the missionaries for quite a few months and still having yet to really go to church, they where becoming frustrated as you can expect. So… they had decided to bring on of best friends to the lesson to see if he would be able to “soften my heart” as to make this a little shorter I’ll just say that lesson did not go very well and i kicked all three of them, the 2 elders and my best friend out of my house and asked them not to come back. 

Well, they didn't listen to me, surprise surprise. But I was to stubborn to accept their apologies, so it took another 2 months for them to meet with me again. 

This time we met at the institute, with a random person from the ward. AS we were talking the elders where trying to get me to see the truth, that this Gospel is the only true one on earth and that the only way to be blessed by it is to live it. I told them I was done, I told them I didn't want to live it, I would rather spend my time doing other more important things such as school, work internships and student government. They knew I was about to take a trip back home and made me promise that while i was there, I would try to remember why I became a member in the first place, since I am a convert. I once again reluctantly agree, and that one choice, has made all the difference in my life. 

When back home, I saw the Mesa Arizona temple daily, my sister lives across the street from it so there was no avoiding it, so one day my pride had decided to lighten up and I walked over to the temple. While walking the grounds I had this sudden sense of peace surround me, and the thought, “i need to keep doing this until it feels wrong” that was almost 4 years ago now, and i am obviously very active. 

So why would I tell you, people I barely know something so personal about myself… Because you can learn from my mistakes. 

I am going to be honest, I never said the church wasn't true during that time, I questioned it, but never felt that it wasn’t. looking back now, i can tell you that it was because I was living by pride instead of integrity that made me push the church away. 

There are two definitions of what integrity is, the first being: the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness. Which I think We all have a pretty firm grasp of, but the second one, I like just a little bit more, and it is the state of being whole and undivided.

Isn’t that cool? I like to think of it this way, we are all striving to be perfect. right? The only way to be perfect, is to live with integrity which means to be whole and undivided, and as I recently learned, the greek word for perfection is teleios. Now teleios has a completely different connotation, one that makes much more sense for us than what we would normally think perfection is. Various dictionaries and scholars have defined this word to mean the following: Complete in all its parts; full grown; of full age; maturity; reaching the end (aim); developing into a consummating completion. 

To me, this means integrity and perfection are almost one in the same. Now I am not saying that you have to be perfect ever second of everyday, what I am saying, is to strive to do what you know is right and true and will lead you to the temple, and you will be happy.

This however doesn't mean that the storms of life won’t come like Elder Cook said, they will. ONe of my favorite quotes is “Fireproof doesn't mean the fire will never come. It means when the fire comes that you will be able to withstand it.” Heavily Father loves us, and would never put us in a situation where He thought we would get smothered by the fire, we may get a few burns here and there but in the end, we will over come the fire.

I want to bare you my testimony that Heavenly Father does love us, all of us, and he wants us to return to live with him. It doesn’t matter how far from him we think we are, it is not possible for us to sink lower than the infinite depth that Christ’s love can go. further than Christ’s love can reach. 

If you are having a hard time with the Gospel find someone to talk to, if you want you can come talk to me. I know how hard it can be to pull your self out of a place of despair, I have spent my fair share of time in the place where souls get lost and lines get crossed and the pain  wont go away. And the only way I was able to get out of the pit was to hit my knees, pray and rely on those who where still active in the gospel, and to accept the help offered to me… and yes… I was not always happy about it… only then was i able to stand and get out. I can promise you there is no greater joy in this life, than living the gospel

There is a poem I love that explains trials much better than I can, and I hope it helps you. 

My life is but a weaving

Between my God and me.

I cannot choose the colors

He weaveth steadily.

Oft’ times He weaveth sorrow;

And I in foolish pride

Forget He sees the upper

And I the underside.

Not ’til the loom is silent

And the shuttles cease to fly

Will God unroll the canvas

And reveal the reason why.

The dark threads are as needful

In the weaver’s skillful hand

As the threads of gold and silver

In the pattern He has planned

If you ever doubt his love for you pray, he is there, He is our Father, treat him as such go to him for help,you may not understand why he does what he does, but he is familiar to us and if we pray, we can more fully see the pattern he has weaved. 

Ezra Taft Benson said this about Heavenly Father “Nothing will surprise us more than when we get to heaven and see the Father and realize how well we know Him and how familiar His face is to us.”

Once again, I know he loves us and wants us to find true joy, and the only way to find it is by living the gospel and doing what we know is right, in spite of our own self gain.

I say these things in the name of our beloved Savior, Jesus Christ, Amen. 

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Thoughts and Opinions

Howdy,

As we are all very aware of the SCOTUS ruling to make same sex marriage legal, now I am not going to tell you about my opinion on the subject itself, because it isn't important. I want to express my thoughts and opinions on other peoples reactions and thoughts.

I will be blunt and honest. I am sorry if this offends anyone, I am sorry but this is my honest thoughts.

First of all just because you are for or against the ruling, doesn't mean you need to mean rude and ugly to the other side. As I scroll though my Facebook feed I see people posting things such as:

"Time to remind the hateful bigots that this is certainly not an attack on religion, but an attack on their bigotry." 

"Could everyone do me a big favor and unfriend me if you don't support marriage equality."

In my experience and what I have read and seen, the LGBT community feels like they have been discriminated against for how they feel they should be able to live their lives, which I can understand. BUT, once the ruling came out and Christians and believers in Traditional marriage were against it, the LGBT community and those who support it where discriminating against the people who feel like marriage is between a man and a women.   

Traditional marriage supporters are being called intolerant, bigots, incompetent, idiots and many other things, simply because they hold to their convictions of what marriage should be. 

So, in other words the LGBT community and those who support it, are doing to others what they have claimed has been done to oppress them... Does this seem like it's right or fair? 

I don't think so. 

Just because you disagree with someones views on a subject doesn't mean you need to be degrading and nasty about it. It is possible to have opposing views and be genuine about it. 

No one person or groups rights are more important than any other group or person. 

I feel like everyone should be treated with the same respect. If a public official doesn't want to preform a marriage because it goes against their beliefs, find another person to do it. They shouldn't be penalized for their beliefs. Isn't that what this was partially about? Not being judged for your beliefs and being able to live life the way you want to? This applies to both sides. If you are not willing to be tolerant and understanding of other beliefs and convictions, don't expect other to accept and respect yours.

I feel like this has become a bigger issues than it needs to be, we all just need to be conciderate and genuinely nice to those around us. It's that the "golden rule"? Treat others as you would like to be treated. 

A very wise author summed it up nicely in one sentence: " A persons a person no matter how small."

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Do you deserve Jesus?

Howdy!

So I know that this may be a weird question to ask, and I probably shouldn't be asking, but I have a point trust me.

Try to answer these questions honestly:

Do you deserve Jesus?
Do you deserve what He did for you?
Do you appreciate what He has done for you?
How do you show that appreciation?
If you don't appreciate it, why not?
Are you living in a way to deserve Him?

I know these are questions that are personal and hard to answer. Honestly, if we answer these questions ourselves, some of them aren't very positive.

To our finite minds, we may think that we don't deserve Jesus, that we have done too much bad, that we have become so far away from him that there is no possible way for us ti return. We let others fill our minds with doubt, and let them tell us we are not good enough to deserve Jesus.

The horrible thing is that we believe it. We let all of the negativity of what we and what others think of us get us down. We start to believe the lies of the world.

We start to believe that we are nothing, that we have no future, that life ends at death.

But I am here to tell you how very wrong that is.

I have recently been filling my life with as much, for lack of a better term, Jesus as possible. I have come to some very important realizations.

We, as a whole, do not and cannot understand the infinite love that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ have for us! They love us no matter what! It's not conditional. Heavenly Father loves us so much that he was willing to let us have our agency. He knew that some of His children would turn their back to Him, He knew that we would make mistakes, He knew that we would go through tremendous pain. He knew that there was only one way for us to get through it all so that we could have the experiences and knowledge we needed to be with Him again.

That way was Jesus Christ. That way is the atonement. That way, is the only way for all of the hurt of this world to be worth it. That way, is the only way the joy and love could be eternal.

Heavenly Father sent His son, Jesus Christ to come to Earth, to live a perfect life, to teach, to preform miracles, to show us how to love, and show us how to live. This hurt Heavenly Father. He watched His son die, in pain, so that we could live.

Jesus Christ died on the cross to save all of us. He had to balance the scales of justice and mercy.  He did this so that when we sinned, we would be able to repent and be clean. He did this so we could live a life that we wanted to, and choose what to do or not to do. We get to choose how we live because of their love.

But, that is not that most amazing part to me. The most amazing thing about the atonement in my opinion is that Christ would do it all, for ONE of us. Yes, you read that correctly, if He needed to Christ would still go through the pain of being crucified for one single person.

How amazing is that love? How does that change how you see what He has done? I want to go back to my first question. Do you deserve Jesus Christ? Do you deserve to have Him die for you?

You still might think you don't, and to the world you don't... but you do! You can't let anyone talk you out of this truth! I am aware that it is hard to believe and you don't feel like you are worth it, but to Them, you are. There is also only one way to to show Them how grateful we are.

We obey Their will. Simply said, not easily executed, but always worth it.

So this Easter season, I wish, hope, and pray that you search out Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father. Test Them and their love. They will never leave you alone, they love you.

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